There is a Path in Apathy

So in 2020, this thing called the Covid 19 Pandemic happened. I'm sure you're familiar. Did it affect your life in some way? I'm not making light of it… the illness and its aftermath affected every human on Earth and we are still reeling from it.

The lockdowns we adhered to put us on pause in a way that was unfamiliar to all of us, particularly Americans used to running all over the place. Suddenly, we came face to face with silence and were forced into the boredom we avoid through constant activity. Who are we, if not the busy beavers of productivity, building up our dams to keep out whatever feelings or truths roar their ugly heads?

In our idleness, stuff came up. Anger, frustration, fear, you name it. But of all the emotions that bubbled forth, by far the most perplexing one I’ve seen is apathy. I’ve seen it the most in school age kids, losing all interest in what our education system has to share. To their curious minds, if we could shut it down, what did it all matter anyway? Does anything truly matter?

WHAT DOES TRULY MATTER?

I was drowning in that apathy myself. With nowhere to go and nothing to do, I sank into a life of no desire. No emotion. No anger. No sadness. Zero. I was paralyzed by indifference.

When I don’t know what to do, I pray. So I prayed to simply feel something! Months slipped by and nothing held my interest. I begged for the simple tug of emotion to knock on my door and say we’re back! Nada.

Yet, I discovered there is A PATH in A-PATH-Y. A ripeness, a beckoning forth from the void. If you are feeling this way, I've come to know, You are being prepared. You are being slowed down into presence, a space most are not familiar w

ith, but need be. Apathy holds an answer if you surrender to its magic.

For from this nothingness springs everything. Like a seed beneath the fertile soil of winter, you are in a state of waiting.

Give yourself time.

Be with the indifference.

Accept where you are.

TRUST.

A point will come in which the path will roll out before you, and you will feel ready to sprout. You peek your head out, you feel the warmth of the sun, and you smile.

Apathy has called you to bloom.